Down

I am a failure
falling and failing
falling and failing

Down

           Down

                       Down

                                    I go

Destroying only myself, I know
Yet how can I go up anymore?
When down is the only direction I know?

Over the years, people have dragged me with them
I learn to surrender to gravity
Struggling only seemed to make it worse
Every time I think that I cannot fall any deeper, I do
I fall over and over again
And here I am, a slave to my sins once again

Again and Again
It seems endlessly hopeless
I have betrayed and cheated myself
There is no restitution but only execution

Revolution after revolution of the earth and yet I stand here with no solution
I break, I tear, I leave myself bare
I am a lost cause
The one farthest from it all
The one who has no further to fall

Yet I keep going

Down

           Down

                       Down

                                    I go

Self-hate permeating and I self-medicate with only myself mediating
I am the doctor and the patient
I don’t need anyone to condemn me more than I have condemned myself
I am embarrassed
Shamefully broken by my endless mistakes
I am lost and cry out

You cry out too: It is finished!

It is one of greater resonance and volume
Of a greater falling
You fall from the highest peak of heavenly mountains
To the coals buried at the fire pits in hell
You fall with my failure written on your hands
You fall my descent
Struck down…yet somehow not destroyed…

You begin to rise
Somehow I rise too
With you
I rise above my failure
I rise beyond my worth
I rise because of you

And then I see, my friend

She is falling
falling and failing
falling and failing

Down

           Down

                       Down

                                    I go to show her how she can rise again

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